afraid that people will judge me for the things i do. afraid that because of my decisions, they will not like me. please don judge me, cos i aint perfect, cos i aint who you want me to be. i can be blur at times, i cant be an asshole sometimes.. but am i not like that always. i just want to be with my friends. when they are happy, i am happy. they smile, i smile.

they say " those who matter, dont care. those who care, dont matter" that sint true. thats bullshit to someone who treasure all his friends. one that doesnt open up to everyone, only those few that you know who you are. but when i open, its like a freaking dam that pours out. i really treasure those that talks to me. be it guy or girl. be it younger or older than me. doesnt really matter. someone once told me, " i know you better than you know yourself" you are right.. maybe only you know me that well.

recently, i found a new friend. someone i can talk about everything with. someone i knew for 3 years already. but we are just hi-bye friends.. somehow, we just cliqued... somehow, like magic. i can just say what i want. and i know you wont judge, cos you don like people to judge too. perfect friend, i would say. this could be a start of a long friendship. i want to treasure this and all the others i have had. this time, its gonna be different, i am gonna work hard to keep my friends. all of them.